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[29 Oct 2009|12:52am]

Go phillies they won in an awsome game
I had a long ass 2 days at work I can't wait till friday when I'm off

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[25 Oct 2009|03:15am]

Had a very relaxing day off today spent most of it sleeping hope I can now go to bed so I can wake up for work on time I realy love my baby she make me so happy so it's off to bed with baby for a few hours before work good night

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HOLY SHIT [09 Feb 2005|03:43am]
[ mood | indifferent ]

Okay its been a real long time Since i have updated There has been alot of thing that have happened but not a singel one i wish to talk about at this point in time its really fucked when i read some of the past entrys then look at where thing are now so infact there is just way too much shit to talk about on here i would be here for years but lets just go with recent high light Im now on a bowling team with co-workers its fun and i think its helping me bond with some of my managers which is helping my working atmospher out alot yay umm and i got a hair cut this past saturday yay my hair was so long it really needed it umm well im not going to mention Sunday and well then nothing else really so this it nice and short

Funeral of Hearts
Love’s the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the sun
Shining upon
The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail
He was the moon
Painting you
With it’s glow so vulnerable and pale

Love’s the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

She was the wind, carrying in
All the troubles and fears here for years tried to forget
He was the fire, restless and wild
And you were like a moth to that flame

The heretic seal beyond divine
Pray to God who’s deaf and blind
The last night’s the soul’s on fire
Three little words and a question why

Love’s the funeral of hearts
And an ode for cruelty
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts
And a plea for mercy
When love is a gun
Separating me from you

Late
-MD-

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Rabble Rabble Rabble [29 Dec 2004|01:54am]
[ mood | calm ]

Well not to much has happened lately Rubys still sux but its cash so yea been just trying to make shit work. "Thats how we do it at Pinkys" lol. Idk really what to say ummm. I have been doin the same old same old I have met some prospects (all know what i mean if you don't to bad) I don't know if anything will ever come of it but its out there umm well i really don't have anything else so... ill just end it here i know its short oh well

Lose You Tonight

Don't run away
I can't live without you
Please stay
And I learn to love you right

I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life
I've been crying for you
Die for you all this time
I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life
And I ain't gonna
Lose you tonight
No, I ain't gonna lose you tonight

Don't run away
I never wanted to hide you
Please stay
And I learn to treat you right

I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life
And I've been crying for you
Die for you all this time
I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life
And I ain't gonna
Lose you tonight

I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life
And I've been crying for you
Die for you all this time
I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life
And I ain't gonna
Lose you tonight

I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life

Oh, I can't live without you

And I've been crying for you
Die for you all this time

I never want adore you

I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life
And I ain't gonna
Lose you tonight

I ain't gonna lose you tonight

I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life
And I've been crying for you
Die for you all this time
I was waiting for you
Waiting for all my life
And I ain't gonna
Lose you tonight

Late
-MD-

Fuck you all...<;

Longtime No See [16 Dec 2004|01:14am]
[ mood | Too many ]

Well it has been a long time since I have updated well I'm part of the "my space junkies" it really is addictive lol well there has been a bit going on since I updated last I am not really at Mikes all that much tonight was the first time I have seen him since the day after my birthday he hasn't really talked to me since then and I don't really know how to feel about that its kinda of like the cold shoulder toward me He and others have been saying that he has been really down latly and needs time to think about shit well that understandable but to cut out friends who have been there threw so much in such a short period of time is kinda strange friend that have done so much to help and have offered so much more its just so odd to turn away from them and to welcome others with open arms. well enought about that........

I have gone back fulltime to Ruby's Yea It sucks but its money what can I say I heard from Rob and Mellisa its really funny cause Idk about Rob but Mellisa seem to think that she can just start talking to me all over again and think that everything is going to be cool between us again and well she ended Rob and mines friendship so for me to welcome her back opened armed is fucking nuts I would have to be on crack to do that I have both of their new cell phone numbers lol like I will ever use them.

I other new I have been down on life and why for stupid reason well their not stuip but people have it so much worse then I do so why do I let this shit get me down? I know because it the shit happening to me not to someone else ME! Yes there are worse things out there that could be happening to me but Im down because of what is happening not the things that are worse. (I know this sounds so bad and all me me me) This is just how I feel I wish I had a better job I wanna change so many things in my life and I feel like I am hitting a wall their is so much shit that just seems like Im not going to do or acomplish.

I have to change the subject before I bitch anymore and become unbareable but there is just alot of shit. Well today I wen't out and did Christmas Shopping It wasn't as bad as I thought. Yay!!! I got everything done and well I don't know what else to say other then I hate Ruby Tuesday and Rabble Rabble Rabble.....

Broken

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

[x2]
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

Late
-MD-

Fuck you all...<;

[25 Nov 2004|10:06pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Well I haven't updated in awhile but then again I have been staying at mikes pretty much. We fixed up the hole in the wall we cleaned it, moved shit all over. It was crazy. I am getting even more fed up with people. I really don't know what the fuck to think say or do I put shit in here that is going on in my life and if people who read this don't like what i have to say well i feel that is their problem and I shouldn't be made to feel guilty for people who don't like what they read if they have proplems with it don't fucking read it don't post shit in you own journal that is going to try and make me feel bad If you don't like how I feel and how i live my life doing the things i do then don't fucking read my journal I really tiered of people trying to make me feel badly for what I write in here Im not talking about just one person there are a few of you that have done this and this is me letting all of you (you know who you are) know to back the fuck off cause i have been threw enought shit and i don't need the guilt from you, because I let you into my life thats all okay

Broken

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

[x2]
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

Late
-MD-

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Women Fucking Suck [17 Nov 2004|11:12pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

Hey there isn't much to type but I just feel really strange. I feel like there is nothing to be happy about cause as soon as I do feel happy about something its gone. I just wish shit was different. I feel like everything good has been bad in some way my news happy moment was Krissy but I'v tried to talk to her and she hasn't returned a phone call yet I am going to call her and talk to her one last time if I don't hear anything from her Im done with it

Its been nothing but bullshit Im tiered of Womens games and their lies and their shit. I use to love Crystal that bit me in the ass. I tried to be her friend that was just as bad she. She turned her back on me for her asshole after I threw away a friendship for her.

Then there was Jess who well lets face it she was just felt stronger for me then I did and the things she was doing just kinda drove me away and well I wasn't about to let her feeling grow more when mine weren't

I just don't fucking get women. I really need to just give up on women for awhile. They are nothing but trouble. I have no faith in women. They are all have a signed a deal with a devil cause If there is anything that can bleed for aweek and not die is not to be trusted

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

Late
-MD-

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[13 Nov 2004|09:26pm]
[ mood | relaxed and blue ]

Hey all Its been a bit since I updated but here I am at mikes so im gonna take advantage of it Well I'v called Krissy and she hasn't gotten to back to me and it pisses me off that she has made no attempt to contact me which sucks ass so I am going to try and see her one more time and tell her flat out if she wants something to happend make the move cause im tiered of being jerked around on other notes i have been depressed about my father it sucks but hopefully all that will turn around idk tonight was the HIM concert i didn't get to go and well that sux but im listening to him now so it okay i guess i just feel like shit thats all I have work tommorow im going hate it but oh well

Heartache Every Moment

From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I'm lost
And no heaven can help us
Ready, willing and able
To lose it all
For a kiss so fatal
And so warm

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you

And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up
'Cause there's no smile of an angel
Without the wrath of god

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you
My darling with you

From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I am lost
And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment with you
That's right

late
-MD-

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Rabble Rabble Rabble [08 Nov 2004|01:16am]
[ mood | to many to list ]

Okay so Krissy didn't show on saturday nor did Crystal Fran was bluffing Saturday we finished Manoa. Tomorrow I am working at Manoa to load the Trucks from 9 till 2 then I'm leaving and going home so I can get ready for Rubys at 4. It is going to be a long day.

Today Krissy stoped by my house and I was very frank with her I said "You know I really like you but Im not sure how you feel about me you have been sending me mixed signals and I wanna know how do you feel" She told me that she like me also so I kindly asked her why she never returns my calls and she told me that it was because it is really hard for her to have a personal life with her crazy ex-boyfriend that is living with her. I already know she cant get rid of him so easily cause he watches Tyler (her son) and she can't pay for daycare. She is kinda stuck with him so I suggesested that the three of us go and catch a movie and then we could get something to eat and she seemed to like the idea. So well see how that gose. She gave me a ride to work today so that was kool.

I really like her she is a sweet girl but there is so much I still don't know and would really like to know if she would give me the chance so well hopefully she will. At fist the thought of a girl with a child kinda freaked me out but I meet him and he is really cute. From talking with her she isn't looking for someone to be a father to him either just someone who will treat him well and as I look at it I have 7 nephews and neices so I know how to do that. I think her and I would be good for eachother. She is a good mother she always puts Tyler first above everything she makes sure he is taken care of. Well that enought of her for now.

I have been thinking alot and I really feel that some people in this world are so increadably stupid. I mean some people will just never grow up and as they get older they fall into the same footstepes as there examples. They have no idea that they are doing cause they are to blinded and imature. I really feel that we all should learn from our mistakes and some of us do some take longer then others and then there are some that will never learn cause of there ignorance and stubborness. As I write this I have someone in mind ( you all should know who it is ) *coughing crystal* but I also see my self doing a bit of the same I'm getting ahead of my self with Krissy I shouldn't build anything up I know this Iv done it before with others. I also see myself doing things my father did. Things I thought I'd never do. I am trying to change. That what makes me different then those other people. I see it happening and I try to change it. Well I guess that enought about me ranting and raving

I Won't See You Tonight Part 1

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and (loved) most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

It all built up, inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame
As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

Late
-MD-

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HE HE HE!!!!!!!!!!!!! [05 Nov 2004|06:38pm]
[ mood | devious ]

Okay so Krissy didn't get done in time but she stoped in for a few mins with tyler (her son) (hes so cute) I was suppose to go to plym. meeting tomorrow but as I was leaving fran said I would be at manoa again. He said he was going to have some kinda punishment for me. Someone said something about Crystal. I said I like to see you try and get her lazy ass to come that far. well the thoughts started running threw my head. Think about it this way I worked with Crystal for a month or so last season meching and I hated her guts then so one day is nothing. Plus she had feelings for me. (he he he) this is where I can be an asshole if she was telling the truth which is a hard thing for her then there is the chance that those feelings are still there and well.... Krissy is going to be there all day and I called her and talked to her already she will be hanning all over me and Crystal will just have to sit back and watch which will drive her up a wall more so after that talk I had with her in her aunts back yard so I Uncle Fran's plan is going to back fire on him thank god he never listens to me cause he would know I hate her but I can work with her so LMAO sucks to be Fran I just really hope so badly that what he has planned for me cause if it is he is going to pay he won't know what to think of tomorrow he he he this is going to be good well me and krissy are going to try again for a date idk when but i'll keep you all posted. he he he

Figured You Out by Nickleback

I like your pants around your feet
And I like the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favourite damn disease

And I love the places that we go
And I love the people that you know
And I love the way you can't say no
Too many long lines in a row
I love the powder on your nose

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard, just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard, just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)

I like the freckles on your chest
And I like the way you like me best
And I like the way you're not impressed
While you put me to the test
I like the white stains on your dress

And I love the way you pass the check
And I love the good times that you wreck
And I love your lack of self-respect
While you passed out on the deck
I love my hands around your neck

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard, just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard, just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
(Why not before, you never tried)
(Gone for good, and this is it)

I like your pants around your feet
And I like the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favourite damn disease

And I hate the places that we go
And I hate the people that you know
And I hate the way you can't say no
Too many long lines in a row
I hate the powder on your nose

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard, just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard, just to figure you out
(Now I did, you wonder why)
(Why not before, you never tried)
(Gone for good, and this is it)

She Hates Me By Puddle of Mudd

Met a girl, thought she was grand
fell in love, found out first hand
went well for a week or two
then it all came unglued

in a trapped trip I can't grip
never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

She fucking hates me
trust
she fucking hates me
la la la love
I tried too hard
and she tore my feelings like I had none
and ripped them away

She was queen for about an hour
after that shit got sour
she took all I ever had
no sign of guilt
no feeling of bad, no

In a trapped trip I can't grip
never thought i'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

[Chorus]

that's my story, as you see
learned my lesson and so did she
now it's over and i'm glad
'cause i'm a fool for all i've said

[Chorus]

la la la la la la la la la love
Trust
la la la la la la la la la love
Trust
and she tore my feelings like I had none
she fucking hates me

Drift & Die By Puddle of Mudd

Forgotten thoughts of yesterdays
Through my eyes I see the past

[Chorus:]
Well I don't know I don't know I don't know why
I Believe I Believe I Believe in the truth, from inside
Go away go away go away from me
Leave me alone
Ignorance spreads lies
How much will money buy
Well I'll take my time as I drift and die

Unwanted live my life in shame
Who's to blame for my mistakes

[Chorus]

As I drift and die [x3]

Ignorance spreads lies
How much will money buy
Well I'll take my time
As I drift and die [x5]

Late
-MD-

Fuck you all...<;

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